_________________________________________________________________________________So, my mother-in-law has just come back from her holidays (a 10 Mediterranean cruise!) lucky whatsit! Whilst she’s been gone we have had no bathroom scales, I don’t personally own any for fear of becoming scale-addicted! The problem is…
She came back today.. and so have the scales, now my first instinct is to run upstairs and hop on the newly returned scales but of course I sat, saw all the tan lines and snaps and caught-up with all of the gossip, she’d had to pay $17 for a glass of wine!
But I digress, mum-to-be mentioned her weight, apparently she’d put on half a stone over ten days on her all you can eat cruise, but so did I.. I think. As we chatted, I told her about my chocolate and cake binges and the fact that I’ve cut off my paleo instincts and I’m now eating like a sugar crazy monster..
The reason I’m mentioning my sugar-bindgey habits is because;
I know that I’ve put on weight, I can tell from my stomach, my lethargy and my need for sugary foods that I’ve put on weight, I’d guess hmmmm…around 5lbs in 9 days..
- Why is it my first instinct to need to weigh myself when the scales return to my house?
- Why is it that when they were gone I ate like I’d never felt healthy before?
- Why did I need to know exactly how awful I’d been to my body?
I feel like It’s me punishing myself “Well you’ve eaten crap so you’ve put on x-amount of weight, look at you you dumbass” also, it’s because I know how long it’ll take to lose the weight. So why did I eat like that in the first place? Why should I put my healthy happy body,that I’ve spent years making stronger and positively encouraging.. through the hell of eating so much crap and sugar? because.. I felt a release from the scales.
Not because I’m addicted to them or to weighing myself, but because they’re a habit, I find myself drifting towards them out of habit! I love seeing that I’ve not put on weight (It’s not a surprise) I eat carrots and bananas like they’re going out of fashion but who doesn’t love to see the numbers dropping? But, the thing is, I shouldn’t.
As a person who writes on here, gives feed back and tries to help others..by answering weight loss questions and giving out weight loss advice. I really shouldn’t eat crap and weigh myself regularly, I tell everyone all the time; bin your scales! weigh yourself at the doctors, the gym or at a friends house but whatever you do, don’t rely on the scales,
I never did weigh myself after the holiday and still haven’t but I’m sure when the scales are there and I’m having a rough day I’ll weigh myself as an extra kick up the bum to do a workout. I’d still say I’ve put on 6lbs over the break from the scales (The picture is from broken scales – I’m probably 9st 5), but I won’t punish myself by finding out the damage (by weighing myself) because I had fun eating crap for a few days, It was a huge release and also it gives me a target again to tone up and get back to the healthy me I’m used to.