Diary of a not-so fat girl.- I’m THAT woman now.

My mindset was completely different, it was about the quick fix and i felt like it was unachievable to be slim and ‘toned’. The women in the adverts lied and the women in real life never ate..

I’d read tips like;  ‘add an apple in your bag when you need a sugary fix’ or ‘Try water before a meal’ how about ‘eat a balanced healthy diet’.

  “how can people do that, when I want sugar I don’t crave an apple” 

I’d mutter to myself and whine to others, “it’s impossible I’m just going to eat smaller portions”, “I cant do this, I’ll just have one slice of cake it’s fine” “This joggings too much, ill walk it at least I’m moving and burning calories”. So many excuses and I thought I was achieving something by ‘moving my feet’ I could slim down, by eating veg I was helping myself.

I’ve realised now, I’m that women that people get pissed off at, I recently gave advice to someone to keep fruit with her at all times, “it’s great if you want sugar, its right there for you, I love apples” …Jesus, who am I ? …  
“I am beautiful, I am focused, I am healthy”
I love what I am now, I love exercise and I love, I REALLY love the fact that I changed myself, because I put in the effort, failed on diets, failed on exercise but I kept getting up and I found something that worked for me.

I truly believe that confidence is key, maybe you don’t have it now, I didn’t. I earned it, I told myself I will lose 3lbs and eat 1600 calories for 1 month, I did. I then upped the goal…the more I achieved the greater I felt and looked, and I was so in t habit that it became apart of my routine and I felt lost without it. I have earned what I have now, I earned my mindset and body.

You can too.